[And it's true enough, Scott's assumptions-- being left behind is all he knows, and what he sees as Heine's catastrophic betrayal has left him detached and dissociated but desperately afraid of ever forming any such connections again, expecting them only to end in violent dissolution. And thus far, he's been proven right, even if - after everything people here have said to him, after some time spent in trying to process it - he is at least beginning to see that it's different. That it isn't necessarily him his teammates were leaving behind when they transferred out.
And at least Scott has made his position clear. Has already said that he means to leave him. A warning, then, something he can try to harden himself against in advance, mentally prepare himself for. It's not ideal, perhaps, but all of this, the taxara, everything they've come to symbolise for him-- this is something that he needs to do, needs to put to rest, and chances are he'll be unable to do it alone. It would be all too easy to let himself slide the moment Kerberos rears up in him, the moment it whispers yesyesYES, go on and hit the switch. And he can't have that, here. Not this time. Not if he wants to see an end to all this.
And so when Scott advances with his hand extended, Giovanni moves to take it, shows only the most fractional of hesitations before his fingers curl around his teammate's palm. His skin feels dry, abnormally hot to the touch.]
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And at least Scott has made his position clear. Has already said that he means to leave him. A warning, then, something he can try to harden himself against in advance, mentally prepare himself for. It's not ideal, perhaps, but all of this, the taxara, everything they've come to symbolise for him-- this is something that he needs to do, needs to put to rest, and chances are he'll be unable to do it alone. It would be all too easy to let himself slide the moment Kerberos rears up in him, the moment it whispers yesyesYES, go on and hit the switch. And he can't have that, here. Not this time. Not if he wants to see an end to all this.
And so when Scott advances with his hand extended, Giovanni moves to take it, shows only the most fractional of hesitations before his fingers curl around his teammate's palm. His skin feels dry, abnormally hot to the touch.]
Whilst you can, then.